In Pursuit of Capital T Truth.

My bestie and I talk extensively and regularly over the things that bother us (what are best friends for?) and also the things we have learned over the years. She and I have been friends since I was 14 and she was 13.. we’ve seen each other through many different versions of ourselves. I consider it a very special thing as not everyone could be there for the messiness that is the growth process without getting the ick at least once, right?

We laughed at some of the lessons we’ve learned and the weird ways our wounds manifested. All of us have become defensive at least once when we didn’t know something. All of us have probably bullshit our way through something we didn’t know. And the way it feels so embarrassing to actually own and admit that we did that and might still do it sometimes is SO HARD, even as adults.

We can have compassion for ourselves, we give compassion for others too as hard as it can be sometimes.

After all, wherever we are in our growth processes, we’re all in pursuit of Capital T Truth, aren’t we?

It occurred to me that part of the reason my past selves feel so cringe to me is that I thought for sure that I had reached Truth. A truth that felt so alive and vibrant at the time that I found it, that spoke to the wounds and Not-Enoughness I felt at the time, you get the idea. But of course in hindsight, I’m in a NEW set of truths and have outgrown what I thought was True then. It makes me think of times when I was teaching classes or giving readings in a moment where I probably could have been aiming that energy back towards mySELF. But I digress, I recall the words of the Prophetess Octavia Butler whose first phrases in the book, The Parable of the Sower, ring so loudly in my ears.

God is Change.

If God is Change, then does Truth also change? What IS Capital T Truth? Is there such thing as universal truth? Is truth not shaped by the moments that make who we are? Our circumstances, our cultural contexts, the communities and religions that shape our societies? I think perhaps as corny as it sounds, the only universal truth I can think of is LOVE is the glue that holds it all together. But even love has a multitude of ways for a multitude of different problems. So even to say one application of Love is absolutely true, can’t be so.

I don’t know but this morning I woke with this thought.
Truth is moving.
Truth is fluid.
Truth is relational.

I think I’m still figuring out what this all means. It feels to me like an incomplete thought but a complete one at the same time.

What do you think about TRUTH?
and how do we go about holding what is true for ourselves while also holding that what might be true for US isn’t true for EVERYONE?
So can we ever fully arrive at Truth?