Regeneration

I am in my thawing phase.

That is, I feel like the seeds in my garden that need to go through a freeze in order to germinate. The seeds that have that hard, bony coats that are impervious to softening. Therefore freeze is necessary for regeneration. 

I laugh to myself because I got through all of 2020 and 2021 without feeling so burned out and here I am, finally reaching a burnout period in the last few months that - even though I knew that it wasn’t permanent, I knew it was just a phase - didn’t make it any easier to feel so stuck. We are cyclical beings after all but I detest the feeling of stuck-ness. But I’m getting better at recognizing. So I let the freeze take me. Let it take my hard and bony coat & show me that new forms await. 

& even though I know the medicine of waiting & allowing things their time, it certainly doesn’t feel nice . . . or at least, it didn’t/doesn’t for me.

& without any attachment to expectations or deadlines, I wait until l feel that energy of expansion percolating inside me. It’s exciting but not quite ready to burst forward like the little leafy tendrils that reach toward the sun in spring.

Before ascension, it’s necessary to spend time in the deep.
Go within.

You know, Underworld Stuff.

(you know it too, don’t you?)

“Let everything happen to you: The beauty and the terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final.” - Rainer Maria Rilke. 

I love you.
xo, Angie


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Photography Credit: Bronte weiner, indianapolis